Samantha Joy Sullivan(Sam)

November6,1984~November5,2000

Thankyou Jana!

 

      

     

My Last Birthday With Sam

Jan.1,2000

    Sammy and Me

You and I started bonding from the very start
I looked into you beautiful eyes and you stole my heart.
I knew from that moment that it was meant to be
That we would always be together, my Sammy and me.

We started our lives together in nineteen eighty four
And as I gazed into your face, I couldn't love you more.
My little baby daughter grew into what should be
A beautiful young lady, that's what Sammy was to me.

I knew your future was so bright, a life so full of love
But God stepped in and called you home to Heaven up above.
My life I felt stopped that night, the future would not be
But I will hold all the memories of my Sammy and me.

Now you are an angel with wings so you can soar
Fly my angel through the skies til we meet at Heaven's door.
The day will come when we will be together for eternity
We will fly the skies together, my Sammy and me 
             
 Written by: 
 Dianne
May God Bless You!
http://www.jeanneshouseofangels.com/Sammyandme.html 

     

"Our precious Angel Samantha"

We lost our precious Sam on November 5,2000.

The day before her 16th Birthday,in a tragic car wreck.

She was a very loving and caring person.

Sam was happy,energetic and so full of life.She had a

beautiful smile that would win anyones heart. 

Sam touched the hearts and lives of so many people

in the short years she was here on earth.

 

Samantha would have been 16 the day after the tragic car wreck that took our precious daughters life.We had Sam's sweet 16 party that night.After the party I let Sam sit up town with her boyfriend and friends while we cleaned up from the party.We found out later that one of her friends had problems breathing.Sam and Jeremy made the decision to take her to the hospital 20 miles away.That was the wrong decision.Jeremy was driving at a high rate of speed.Then a truck turned in front of them.(This man was NEVER charged! and a cop that was first on the scene LEFT his department.We never found out why.)  All three were ejected.Only my precious daughter lost her life.The other two were not seriously hurt.

Sam was a sophomore,a very happy,fun and energetic person.So full of life.She could light up a room with that big beautiful smile.It won so many hearts in her short life.Sam was always helping others in any way she could.I wish you could have heard her laugh.It was so loud but oh so sweet.Sometimes she could get a little fiesty,but the other good things about her made up for that.Samantha had so much to look forward to.She had everything all planned.Even though she was so young,like her sisters they all knew very early what they wanted in life.The closeness that Sam and her three sisters had was very rare.They didn't just say "I love you " they showed it when they were together.Sam was to graduate high school in 2003.She wanted to go to Florence Tec to get a PA assistant degree in physical therapy.She would have graduated in 2005.Sam's next step was to marry Jeremy,have babies(she wanted five) and live happily ever after.These were her goals and her dreams.

She was a very unique person.She had an ability to love.When she loved someone it was for life.The bonds she made could not be broken,no matter what.Samantha put her heart and soul in everything she did.She touched a lot of lives in her short 15 years.I would like my precious Sammy Jo remembered as a loving,caring,helpful,kind,giving and sweet girl.Always smiling,always laughing,always with love in her heart,enough for everyone.I am so very proud to say,"I am Samantha's Mother.

In Loving Memory of our Precious

Sammy Jo.  Our beauty queen in heaven.

We love and miss you so much!!!

 

                                                       "Angel"

                                               By: Sarah Mclachlan

                      This is my story

   (Remembering The Events Leading Up To that tragic night)

     I picked up Sam at 1:30 from school on Friday November 3,2000.I got her out early to take her to get her licence.Josh (Sam's nephew) was with me. I forgot the stroller so we went back home to get it.Sam was driving.She was a little worried about getting there on time.But we took time to stop at our store to get a coke.When we got there I pushed Josh around in the stroller while Sam was taking her drivers test.When she got out of the car and came in she was all smiles.She had passed and they were taking her picture. Her beautiful dark hair was shinning and her dark eyes were glowing. Sam wore a velvet burgandy sweater jacket with black pants. When we got home the first thing she wanted to do was drive to Erin's house to pick her up.At first I said no then I let her go. Just like she promised she came right back. Jeremy came later to pick Sam and Erin up to go up town. Sam's curvew on weekends was 11:00. I remember when she got home she put her night shirt on and sat in the rocking chair to watch tv with me.Her sinus's were bothering her as they often did. I found the vaper rub to put on her chest and nose. Sam slept on the couch that night as she usually did on weekends. Miranda(Sam's sister) usually came home on Fridays from school. But this Friday she couldn't. Miranda would be home the next day. Sam missed her so much,as we all did. Saturday morning November 4,2000,we slept in. I remember I was on the phone with the lady I was to get the key from to the Woman's Club. This was the place we were having Sam's sweet 16 birthday party that night. While I was on the phone Sam came to the kitchen door holding the blanket that she covered up with on the couch. I can still here her yelling "I spilled coco krispies all over me!" I said to just put everything in the washroom and I would take care of it later.What I remember next was her driving me to pick up the key. After I got the key we went to the Woman's Club to start decorating. Missy and Crystal (Sam's other sister's) came and brought the balloons. Everything was done in pink and purple. Crystal let Sam drive her car to May's to get our lunch. Sam was so happy smiling and excited. She took note of what everyone wanted to eat. She also drove my car that day too.I think she went back to the house to pick up something I needed and of course she cut town a few times,I'm sure.I do know,which I found out later that she went to Mr Vidio's where Tiffany was working to make sure she was coming to her party.Sam and Tiffany had recently made things right between them after some differences they had. I know Sam was glad about  having things resolved because she told me the day that she and Tiffany had a long talk on the porch. I remember when Miranda pulled up at the woman's club (she just got home from Winthrop) and got out the car,all of us went running to meet her and give her a hug. We hadn't seen her since the last weekend. Sam was the first one to get to her. Waving her licence,with such excitment. Saying "Look Miranda!" Miranda was so happy for her. Jeremy came sometime that day. He helped us put lights around the path leading to the door. I think Jeremy was the one to take her home so that she could start getting dressed. When everything was finished, I went on to the house to get dressed. When I pulled up in the yard,Sam came running out to the top of the steps.As I got out of the car she came down a couple more steps and asked "Which shoes should I wear, The ones I've got on(which were black slipons)or my boots?" I told her to wear her boots. Sam looked so pretty. She wore jeans,white turtleneck sweater and a red corderoy jacket. Jeremy came a little while later and picked her up. I was waiting on her with my camera on the porch of the woman's club. I took sam's picture walking up the path. Then I took on the porch by herself,one with Jeremy and one with Chris,her friend and cousin. I don't know why my memory doesn't take me through the whole party. This really upsets me. I do remember taking Sam over to introduce her to the DJ. I remember standing behind her taking her gifts after she opened them.I left two of her gifts at home for her to open on her birthday which also happened to be on our Family night.My plans were to make her a chocolate cake with a sweet16 doll on it. I didn't get to nor did Sam get to open the other two gifts. I still have them sitting on her bed. I remember taking her picture as she blew out the candles on her cake.Sam's cake was made part yellow cake mix and the other part (her favorite) chocolate. I remember Sam coming to me very upset,showing me her new leather jacket that Jeremy gave her. The sleeve had gotten burned on one of the candles. I told her to just calm down,it would be okay.I found out later that Jeremy was going the next day to buy her another one.I remember walking out onto the dance floor to take a picture of Sam and Jeremy dancing.It was about 10:00 or a little after when everyone started to leave.I was standing at the door.Sam came and asked if she could stay up town longer than 11:00,which was the time she was to be home on weekends.She said "Please,Mama." I said "okay,12:00."Sam pleaded "12:30 okay Mama,Please?" I finally agreed to 12:30.I knew we would be up there cleaning anyway.Sam ran back inside to hug her sisters bye.I could here her telling them she loved them.She came back out past me,saying"bye Mama,I love you!" As she was hurring down the path,she just stopped,turned around and came back up to me.She hugged me really tight and very softly said "I love you Mama,thank you for everything." A quick squeeze and a kiss and she was off. I watched her walking away and getting in Jeremy's car.I believed and trusted that she was in good hands.They drove away. I remember crying.Miranda came out and asked me why I was crying.There was just something about that moment with Sam.If I had only known I would have never let Sam get into that car.

I remember loading things in my car and Miranda's.I was going back the next day to get the rest of the things.Thinking back I only remember the baloons being left.It was probably around 11:30 or so when Miranda and I left to go home.I remember seeing them parked up town.After Miranda and I unloaded our cars(which we just put everything on the kitchen floor) we sat down at the table and talked.I can't seem to remember about what.I assume the party.I remember looking at my watch,it was 12:00.I was thinking that I could hardly wait until Sam got home to tell us how she liked the party and look at all the gifts she got.I kept two gifts I bought for her to open on her birthday.They are still sitting on her bed.

I looked at my watch .It was 12:30.I kept listening for the car.At 12:31 I had a very bad feeling in my chest.But at this time I was still hoping to here Jeremy's car.A few minutes past I stood up,my heart was racing.I grabbed the phone not knowing at first who I was calling.I dialed Jeremy's number.His Mother said she hadn't seen them.Just minutes later Jeremy's Mother called me back.She said that she had heard Sam and Jeremy had taken Sam's friend Erin to the hospital.Before I knew it I was in the bathroom(I don't know why) calling the hospital.I asked if they had Erin there.They said they were just bringing her in.I screamed,"where is Sam,my daughter she was with her!" They told me there was no one there by that name.I hung up and called Jeremy's Mother again.It was busy.By this time I was about to lose it.I had become histerical.I dialed the number again.She answered,crying saying that they had been in a wreck on the way to the hospital.I lost it.I remember screaming at my husband to wake up.I remember being in the car driving towards Camden,thinking this is not real and this is a lie! Then I saw it. The lights,the cars,the sound,I can't describe it. Then I remember being out of the car screaming for Sam,trying to find her.People pulling on me.I wanted to hit them,make them leave me alone.All I wanted was to get to my Sammy Jo! The next thing I remember,my husband and I were in the back seat of a car. Jeremy's mother and step father were in the front.I can remember hearing Dena(Jeremy's mom) saying "hurry Daryl." Then we were in the hospital walking down a long white hall.There was so much silence. We made a turn to the right and at that time I saw a man in a white jacket. He said "Mr.& Mrs. Sullivan,I'm sorry." There are no words in this whole wide world that can explain how I felt,and how I still feel. It is undescribale! I could say it's like someone had ripped out my heart. All I wanted to do was die! I didn't want to live wiyhout my Sammy Jo. Someone told me later that I wanted to know where Miranda was. And that I also tried to get the gun from a policeman that was standing there. I remember being in a small room. It was hard to breath and I wanted to die. A figure of someone standing over me saying she was giving me a shot. I have a memory of Jeremy on a bed and I think maybe Erin.I wasn't sure but I was told later that we went in to see them. The next thing I remember is the waiting room and being outside the ER doors. I think I remember Crystal,one of my other daughters(that was pregnant at the time) sitting in a wheel chair. At home Sam's little teddy bear(Jeremy had given her) was on the floor by the couch.I remember picking it up and holding on tight.

               

While we are apart,my precious Sam

 I will hold you in my heart until I can hold you

 in my arms Forever.

 Know that my heart will never let you go.

  I will carry you with me always!

  " Sleep tight my darling "

Love, Mama

  A poem I found ( just changed a little )

  

    If roses grow in Heaven,

  Lord please pick some pink ones for me,

   Place them in my daughters arms

  and tell her they're from me.

   Tell her I love her and miss her,

  And when she turns to smile,

Place a kiss upon her cheek

and hold her for awhile.

 Because remembering her is easy,

I do it everyday.

  But there's an ache within my heart

That will never go away.

  ( auther unknown )

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